Self-portraits...

Dear nobody,
I am writing this letter to you because I wanted to know who I am. I started my searching through making self-portraits at Art class. Our assignment was to make two portraits; an angry-sad portrait and a happy portrait. We had to show our emotions with colours. Those self-portraits have to show who I am. We had four lessons to finish our paintings. Every lesson you paint something which made the portraits complete. E.g. at lesson one you draw the background of both portraits. And the next lesson you draw the clothes, which had to be a complementary colour with the background.
For the angry-sad portrait I chose dark colours because when I see those colours I feel very sad. For the clothes I chose the colours of the background of the happy portrait, but I mixed it with black and other dark colours.
For the happy portrait I have chosen colours which are very bright and supose to mean happy. I think you can clearly see the differences between the angry-sad portrait and the happy portrait. Don’t you?
To draw my hair was very difficult. I got examples from my Art teacher. I put my brushes in water and used different colours of brown. The result is good, because it looks a bit as curls.
I’m not satisfied with the skin colours and the eyes the faces. The faces don’t look real in my opinion, do you? I tried to paint as Vincent van Gogh-style. This has a better result at the happy portrait. I also wanted to make my happy portrait happier. I don’t really see a smile. For the first time of drawing portraits I’m quite satisfied. What do you think about the portraits?
I can’t really give an answer on ‘Who I am’, because I used to be happy and have a positive view of life, but in the drawing it do not really show this.
At the top of this letter you can see the angry-sad portrait and the happy portrait.
I’m curious about your opinion of who I am and about my portraits. I hope to hearing from you soon.
Yours Jeanine de Rijke